“It wasn’t so bad today.”
“I don’t know where to find help.”
“I don’t have the money.”
“Other people have even harder lives and they’re doing just fine.”
“I don’t want to complain.”
“I’ve tried before and it didn’t work.”
“Too many people depend on me. I can’t focus on myself.”
“It’s just a lack of sleep.”
“It’s just my hormones.”
“It’s just my circumstances.”
“It’s just my spiritual life.”
“It’s just my brain chemistry.”
“I’ll do it tomorrow.”
“I want to try ____ (natural remedy, lifestyle change, etc) first.”
“My body feels like led. I can’t even move my fingers to text. How could I possibly do all the steps it takes to get help.”
“I could never stick to it.”
“It’s not as bad as last time.”
“It won’t last long.”
“I don’t deserve help.”
“I deserve to feel like this.”
“I don’t have time to take a shower, how could I possibly fit THIS in?”
“It’ll get worse before it gets better.”
“No one would believe I have these thoughts. I’m sure I seem fine.”
“I should be able to talk myself out of this funk.”
“Nothing can help me.”
“People will think I’m a drama queen.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“I’ve battled this before, I know what to do.”
“I’m too tired.”
“No one will understand.”
“I can pray myself out of this.”
“I’m not going to kill myself… I just want to.”
“They’ll judge me.”
“I’ll embarrass my family.”
“I can’t imagine not being broken.”
“I’m not sure I want to get better.”
“I’m stuck.”
Reasons I will get help.
Also I’m stubborn as heck.
And I promised my mom.
So fight, claw, limp, flop. Whatever. Take a tiny step out of this vicious cycle. Reach out to someone.
My favorite book on depression.
Julie is a frazzled mom of three tornadoes. As a dorky second-generation homeschooler, she writes about learning and play, natural living, special needs parenting and matters of the heart. She serves an astounding God that radically saved her.
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LMFW says
Yeah…I can see your mom holding you to it! Thanks for sharing!
Karen says
You are brave! Hugs!